Responsibility 199, what is it?

Responsibility 199 is a belief; I believe that to be healthy and to increase my longevity I need to weigh 199 pounds or less...
Responsibility 199 is a need; I need to reduce my weight, reduce my percentage of body fat, and the elevated threat of disease my present condition presents...
Responsibility 199 is a mission; I recognize that achieving 199 will be a challenge, perhaps the hardest I have ever undertaken...
Responsibility 199 is a commitment; I acknowledge that I must commit to action, commit to change, commit to myself and those I love to achieve this mission, to increase my longevity...
Responsibility 199 is ME.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Day 60 - Denial to Acceptance

Sixty days makes two months that I've been on this mission. On day 1 if someone had suggested I'd lose 28 pounds in the next 60 days, well simply I would have laughed in my own doubts I could even make it 60 days before quitting again. But, 28 pounds have been lost so maybe I should start believing this will be the time I don't quit.

Yesterday Mertle had an interesting post I wanted to give a shout out to. She did some self analysis using a "Five Stages" approach to a couple of challenges in her life; one of them being weight loss. Take a moment & check her post & blog out here.

Taking inspiration from her, here are my own Five Stages of weight loss...

Denial: I've already eaten 12 ounces of steak, will another 12 really matter? Am I really that over-weight? Nah, give me another 20 ounce hunk oh, and a diet coke please.

Anger: How come I can't fit in this roller coaster car? Why can't I make it through the first hour of the day at this amusement park without my feet killing me? Without needing to sit & take a break? Where is the nearest bathroom with air-conditioning? Oh for heavens sake, how did I get like this?

Bargaining: If I cut back on desserts and snacks I should be OK. Do that and I'll be able to do these things I can't in no time at all; right?

Depression: What the F#@%, I had 2 peanut butter bars instead of 4; just 1 slice of cheese cake versus 2. I mean, I had veggies on my deep-dish pizza - how is it that I am not feeling better? Ah the H&££ with this $±I÷, being fat, being obese sucks!

Acceptance: My wife is losing weight by eating better food versus just less food. She is exercising a little too. So I tried that with her today, just to do something together, just for kicks. Huh, it wasn't that hard. It wasn't necessarily easy but I do feel better today than yesterday. Hmmm, today versus yesterday. That is it! One day, one choice, one change; ONE at a time. I can do this!

What stage are you in?

Responsibility 199 - Gotta Do It!


  1. I think I'm switching back and forth with bargaining and depression! There is a little acceptance in the mix too I have to admit :) The first two are just my mood swings.

    Patrick I should be frank with you. I don't expect anyone to lose 28lbs in two months. But look at you! You will never cease to amaze me. So glad to have you as my blogger friend. ♥

  2. Patrick you have an award over at my blog.

  3. Patrick you have done great 28 lbs in two months. Amazing... I am going to work on my list of stages and try and get it out today.

  4. Excellent observations Patrick. Congrats on your loss and best of luck with your continued success.

  5. I think I'm in a new stage, freakinglovingit. LOL, yes that's the technical term ;)

  6. Just amazing!!!!!!! I love this 5 stage thing.. thx for sharing yours & Mertle! I still bargain with myself in a good way. I do my healthy eating 90%++++ of the time & man, I love my weekend cookie treat! I also have worked my healthy breads into my food program.

  7. I think I fluctuate between the stages at certain points. Last week I think I was in the depression stage!

    You are doing soooo amazing. You are such an inspiration to me. Congrats on the 28 lbs lost in 60 days! Does that mean you've lost a pound every two days?!

  8. I'm not fat, I'm just a "foodie." That was a long stage for me. Denial ain't just a river in Egypt, baby.

  9. You never see a thin person drinking a diet coke or eating diet anything. Only us fat folks do that. :D (not fat for much longer, mind you)

    I lol'd at katdoesdiets comment.

    I still waiver between stages but I think I'm in acceptance more often than not.

    Patrick, your progress pics are hilarious. You have a great sense of humour.

  10. Wow, some awesome responses here. I think there is allot of truth / reality in what you've all said here in that we fluctuate between stages. Sure, we want to all be in Acceptance forever more. But if we allow ourselves to we can slip back, 1 , 2 stages or go all the way back to Denial and start anew.

  11. Hmm...despite my success, I think I'll always have some form of anger in that it just isn't coming natural or second nature to make good choices. I really had hoped that it would, but I guess I'm onto "acceptance" that I will simply have to concentrate on continuing to make more good choices than bad.