Responsibility 199, what is it?

Responsibility 199 is a belief; I believe that to be healthy and to increase my longevity I need to weigh 199 pounds or less...
Responsibility 199 is a need; I need to reduce my weight, reduce my percentage of body fat, and the elevated threat of disease my present condition presents...
Responsibility 199 is a mission; I recognize that achieving 199 will be a challenge, perhaps the hardest I have ever undertaken...
Responsibility 199 is a commitment; I acknowledge that I must commit to action, commit to change, commit to myself and those I love to achieve this mission, to increase my longevity...
Responsibility 199 is ME.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Day 112 - What Revealed & Relapse

Well, some excellent guesses took place with yesterday's visual riddle.

I won't hold out further on you, there it is, it was an old Polaroid Instant Camera. Do you have one? I have two laying around still. Loved these. Still do but in the day of digital photos they are completely impractical. But I used mine right up to the day I became digi photo aware.

The weekend is here... what does it have in store for you?

For me, exercise today. I didn't get any in yesterday as desired. Too busy balancing working from home and trying to get caught up on work stuff, doing my best to care for my wife and the kids - teenage kids - had needs all of the sudden. So, I hate excuses, hate them I tell you, but I let excuses in and keep me away from exercising. Worse, oh so very worse, I ate like a vampire at a neck models convention. Are there neck models? I know there are hand a feet models.

Anyhow, yes, I am here today for the first time in 112 days to admit a relapse. Not a huge titanic sinking relapse to my food addiction; but enough of one for which I feel shame. I just failed in juggling the squeezes on my day and sanity with my ability to make good choices in the face of difficulty.

Today I feel weak, pissed off, but back in control. It is mid-afternoon as I sit here, I have eaten well so far, taken care of the needs of the family most notably my wife (she continues to recovery wonderfully), and am about 45 minutes from heading out for some exercise with my son.

Today will be amends for yesterday and a return to commitment. Tomorrow will be another, and then the day after that, and so on.

I promise!

Responsibility 199 - Gotta Do It!!


  1. Patrick...if I had a dollar for each one of my off days in the past few months, well...I'd have more dollars that I wanted.

    And your post is timely to mine today as well...we all just gotta keep going and that is what you are doing.

    And...being the pillar of strength for the family has got to take its toll...not an excuse, but an explanation.

    It's Patrick time now!

  2. No biggie, really. It would only be cause for concern, if psychologically this one day "off plan" led you to chuck the entire operation and quit everything. Clearly, that is not what you will do. So, just take it for a day off plan and now you are back on. Every cyclist coasts for a minute or so, for various reasons, then they keep pedalling. That's it.

    Glad the Mrs. is recovering well. You are blessed.

  3. I agree with BC--no biggie. Maybe it'll even shake things up a bit and be to the ultimate good. Keep on keeping on.

  4. Good job getting back and track.

  5. Your doing great.... I had a bad two months and frankly after 5 days of being back at it... i feel frustrated .. .but I wlll get there!

  6. We all have those days. Good job getting right back on track. I hate that shameful, guilty feeling!

  7. Patrick, we've all had the relapses. What makes the biggest difference this time is that you are not giving up and falling back into your old patterns. Shake it off and move forward and bust this shit out!!!!