Responsibility 199, what is it?

Responsibility 199 is a belief; I believe that to be healthy and to increase my longevity I need to weigh 199 pounds or less...
Responsibility 199 is a need; I need to reduce my weight, reduce my percentage of body fat, and the elevated threat of disease my present condition presents...
Responsibility 199 is a mission; I recognize that achieving 199 will be a challenge, perhaps the hardest I have ever undertaken...
Responsibility 199 is a commitment; I acknowledge that I must commit to action, commit to change, commit to myself and those I love to achieve this mission, to increase my longevity...
Responsibility 199 is ME.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Day 11 - Hunger, Not!

We're not quite two weeks into this mission and I have noticed a handful of changes in myself. None is a noticeable as my reaction to hunger pains. This realization came to me last night while waiting for my son to find his way to the truck after soccer practice. While waiting I could hear my hunger pains over the rumble and roar of a freight train passing nearby. What got me thinking is that I didn't pay this cry from my belly much notice. Why is that? Could it be I've become more tolerable to these pains? Could it be they have less influence on my decisions now that eleven days ago? Yes seems to be the answer although I am not sure why exactly.

A couple weeks ago hunger pains hit me like a chorus of loud screams from the depths below and succeeded in grabbing my attention fully. When they shouted, I jumped; usually into the refrigerator or a nearby fast food drive thru. But last night, and I presume going forward too, my hunger pains screams are fading to that of a raised voice that is growing frustrated in its attempts to maintain its once grand influence. Now I can put them in the back of my mind as I know when I am going to eat next and what. I am in control of fueling my own engine, not the phantom behind my hunger pains.

Today is an exercise day. Planned is a walk around Lake Andrea after work with my son, about a 2.25 mile affair we've done before. Looking forward to it.

Hope you too will get a charge out of your Wednesday.

Responsibility 199... Gotta Do It!!


  1. Those pains are still screaming with me... :)

    - Lisa

  2. I think it is about a change in control. You are taking control over your body and mind. Hunger used to control me too...I'd eat huge portions whether hungry or not just to ensure that I wouldn't feel hungry later. Hunger is a pavlovian response to stresses,boredom, etc. (in addition to true hunger). I'd find myself hungry even if I shouldn't have been just so that it would trigger a eating response that would have me feeling better against the stress, boredom, emotion, etc. Once you start to change mentally, you start to ignore that hunger response is a good sign that you are taking better control.

  3. Lisa, stopped by your blog and am following it, nice to meet you.

    Kyle, mental - mental - mental. I am starting to get the idea this is so much more a mental journey than a physical one.

  4. Good for you, tackling those hunger pains! I like to think of those growls as a sign that I am losing weight because I am depriving my body of all the junk it was accustom to being served up.

    Keep up the good work, Patrick!